2.13.2011

My Dream Last Night

Last night, I had a dream. And in the dream I was laughing harder than I think I've ever laughed before. It was so euphoric and soul-emptying. I don't even remember what the dream was about, but something made me laugh and it felt so incredible and fulfilling that I couldn't and didn't want to stop. 


It got me thinking; all the dreams I've ever had in which emotions and feelings were involved, those feelings and emotions were always more intense and satisfying than anything I have or ever can experience in real life. The sex I've had in dreams was always so uncontrollable and vivid. Like every single nerve ending was involved. Things that are not possible to feel in reality. The sadness felt was so hopeless and existential; like there was no coming back from. The few times I've cried in a dream, it felt so final; I had lost something irreplaceable and precious to me, but at the same time it took so much energy out of me. I was pouring the entire contents of my core out. I felt it so deep inside my chest and at the end I was so empty and drained. But strangely it felt so much more real than the real world. I want to stay in that world and I would trade the deepest sorrow in my dreams for the greatest happiness in my reality. This place is so dull and artificial compared to my dreams.

2 comments:

Brent said...

Last night I had a dream in which I pulled a man's head off. Can anybody tell me the meaning of that?

The Many Colours of Happiness said...

I know exactly what you mean, I have had so many dreams where I have woken up crying. And even though you know it was a dream there is this shadow hanging over the rest of your day.

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